feb. 12,09

LeAnn,
well I took you to jail today. When I got back home i cleaned out your truck. While i was doing this i found the papers from Bryan's ER visit. Wow he must of had a hell of a headache.
Well after that i looked in your wallet for your ID. Remember you said Christie needed it. You left something in there or should i say Half of something,Please don't insult me and say it has been there awhile. I know better. I get that you are an addict. Your head is messed up. Maybe this will work for you. Maybe you want to get better. I just don't know.
I need to tell you how I feel.I have tried before but you couldn't hear me. I need to let you know how I have been affected.
I let you live with me and you didn't help me at all. Wednesday you feed Bryan, kellyn and Zach. you didn't buy food for here ever. And before you left you bought Kellyn food. I did all the cleaning.cooking, laundry, all of it. You should have helped me.
For a really long time now my life has been all about you and your addiction. Momma was always so busy fixing you, she had no time for me or Scott. We suffered. Later in life I had to help fix you for her. I suffered,When she died I became her. I suffered, my kids suffered, and my husband suffered.
It has taken my a long time to get to this point but i know now that you have to fix yourself. All i have done is stand in God's way. I am stepping back and letting Him step up.
I understand that i have had my own issues, still do really. I just focused on you so I wouldn't have to work on me.
Our relationship has to change. We need to detach for each other. We need limits.